Is My Loved One Psychotic or Demon-Possessed? How Do I Tell the Difference?

When I was in my late teenage years, after having already battled depression, anxiety, and an eating disorder in prior years, I started displaying odd symptoms of altered personality and mania. I started receiving what felt like dark impressions and communications from demons. I had the feeling an evil entity was watching me and I never felt truly alone anymore. When I moved my arms or legs, it felt like another entity was moving them. My body had a feeling that I can only describe as an occupied-by-another-entity feeling. It felt like a demon spirit was possessing my body, and looking out through my eyes. Needless to say, I was deeply disturbed by this. My church family prayed for me and laid hands on me, and they weren’t sure if I was demon possessed. Then, several years later, another young woman at our church displayed similar symptoms. She was also prayed over with laying on of hands, and her symptoms like mine did not go away with prayer. Like me she was hospitalized multiple times at the psychiatric hospital, medicated and treated, and entered "the system."

At one point during a really bad mania I heard demon voices screaming at me. I 100% believed I was possessed. I contacted pastors and had them pray for me, yet the symptoms did not go away. This sent me into a panic. Why wasn’t the name and authority of God working to get rid of the demons? The Bible said they leave in Jesus' Name. I knew Jesus was stronger than Satan, but the demons wouldn’t leave. This led to my faith being severely tried and several years of confusion. What was the key I wasn’t understanding that was preventing me from getting deliverance from this demon? I kept searching for this knowledge that seemed so hidden from view and from my understanding. I did unhealthy things like shut myself in my room and isolate from everyone for days while I prayed to God and sought deliverance in strange ways that made sense to me at the time.

Demon Possession is Very Real

Let’s talk about demon-possession. According to the Bible, demon-possession is very real, and it wasn’t uncommon in Jesus’ day.

When the even was come, they brought unto him many that were possessed with devils: and he cast out the spirits with his word, and healed all that were sick: Matthew 8:16

Since our world is even more wicked than in His generation, I doubt demon-possession is any less common today, in fact it would make sense for it to be even more common than back then.

How Does a Person Get Demon-Possessed?

Unfortunately in many Christian circles it has become increasingly common for people to see demon-possession as almost a natural condition, like catching a cold or coming down with the flu. Demon-possession can happen to anyone, Christian or un-Christian, in this view, but only Christians have the authority to rebuke the demons away and benefit from God in this way. I know Christians who daily rebuke demons as a form of a spiritual health practice, like one might take their multivitamin for their physical health. There are believed to be all kinds of demons. Demons of sickness, demons of jealousy, demons of hatred, etc. and they name each one and banish it in Jesus' Name.

But what does the Bible say? Are any of these practices actually in the Bible? Can Christians be demon-possessed? We want the Bible to explain the process of becoming demon-possessed to us, and not get our information from human opinion or speculation.

Saul's Story Shows Us How Demons Gain Control of a Person
The Bible shows us many accounts of demons gaining control over people. The story of King Saul is one of the best examples. Saul after his anointing as king was given the Holy Spirit; he was the farthest thing from demon possessed.

"When he [Saul] and his servant arrived at Gibeah, a procession of prophets met him; the Spirit of God came powerfully upon him, and he joined in their prophesying."
1 Samuel 10:10

But then he experienced a life test. The prophet and priest Samuel told him to wait until he arrived to offer a sacrifice to God. Kings were never to offer sacrifices, only priests as was written in the Levitical law. Saul went ahead and offered sacrifice, showing that he didn’t take the holy things of God seriously. He had a careless attitude. The result was that God rejected him as king. He should have repented and accepted that the throne would go to another, submit to God’s will and find peace in God. Who knows perhaps had he done this God may have restored to him the kingdom. But instead he grew bitter and resentful and an evil spirit troubled him.

"But the Spirit of the LORD departed from Saul, and an evil spirit from the LORD troubled him" 1 Samuel 16:14.

The Scriptures sometimes represent God as doing that which He does not specifically prevent. In giving Satan an opportunity to demonstrate his principles, God, in effect, would limit His own power. Of course, there were limits beyond which Satan could not go (see Job 1:12 ; 2:6 ), but within his limited sphere he did have divine permission to act.

Notice that the Spirit of God first departed from Saul and then an evil spirit came and troubled him. This is significant. You cannot be filled with God's Holy Spirit and be demon-possessed at the same time. And anyone who is saved and right with God is filled with His Holy Spirit; anyone who is not saved and walking with God is not filled with His Holy Spirit. Salvation is directly linked with Holy Spirit indwelling.

"And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, they do not belong to Christ."
Romans 8:9

It’s also true that the opposite actions to what Saul did when he harbored a spirit of pride and resisted the Holy Spirit more and more fully, cause a person to progress in their sanctification and to be more and more filled with God’s Spirit. When we surrender more and more sin and come into closer and closer relationship with God we become more and more filled with His Spirit.

Here are two great verses that spell out how the Holy Spirit is grieved away, and how to be filled with God's Holy Spirit.

“And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.”
Ephesians 4:30-31

"But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice… and put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator.”
Colossians 3:8-10

By surrendering these sinful heart attitudes to God, we receive God's Spirit, and by holding onto them we grieve away God's Holy Spirit.


Something as important and transformative as being possessed by demons or filled with God's Holy Spirit isn’t random. It isn't chance! And it's not a natural condition. People don’t just become possessed without warning and without cause. It’s not like falling sick with the flu. Neither do they become filled with God's Holy Spirit randomly. This happens when they repent of sin and yield to God, and the more they yield their lives to Him, the more fully they will be like Him in character and the more of His Spirit they will receive. When Saul was surrendered to God when he first became king, he was filled with the Spirit of God, and when he became unrepentant, resentful and jealous, demons gained control over him.

David's Harp-Playing Shows Us the Power - and Limits - of Godly Person's Intercession and Influence
David was sent to play the harp for Saul and the demon left Saul when David played his harp. But while the demon would leave briefly, it always returned. What was causing it to return? Prayer is powerful. The Word of God tells us that “the effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much,” James 5:16.
Matthew 15:22-28 Tells us that a woman’s faith healed her daughter of demon possession! It's important to note that children can be demon-possessed, not just adults, and we should pray for our kids). We can pray for another and we can sing songs that glorify God and His love, and encourage a person to let go of their pride and jealousy or doubt in God, but if that person keeps turning to sin and inviting Satan into their life, we can’t save that person from Satan taking control. They have to choose to resist Satan personally.

Saul initially loved and respected David, but one day after a day of battle the Israelite women danced and sang this song “Saul has killed his thousands, but David his ten thousands.” This aroused Saul’s jealousy and he tried to murder David by throwing a javelin at him. Murder was now in the heart of the king.

"And Saul was afraid of David, because the Lord was with him, and had departed from Saul." 1 Samuel 18:12 .

David was a man after God’s own heart, humble and submissive to God’s will. Saul was a jealous man with murder in his heart. This jealousy and murderous desire caused God’s spirit to flee from him, and allowed the evil spirit to enter.

Throughout the rest of Saul’s life, David and Saul’s son Jonathon tried to win Saul’s heart back to God. Saul began to start hunting David, but once in a cave when Saul found David, his heart softened and he determined not to kill him. He hugged him, apologized, and wept. Clearly Saul was struggling with the sin of jealousy as there were times he went back and forth between love and hatred toward David. He seemed like two different men.

But at the end of his life he allowed jealousy to take over. It says that he inquired of God, but that God answered him not.

"And when Saul inquired of the LORD, the LORD did not answer him, either by dreams or by Urim or by the prophets." 1 Samuel 28:6 .

Saul had grieved away God's Holy Spirit as explained in those verses we read above in Ephesians 4:30-31 and Colossians 3:8-10, but what did he do? He didn’t repent and turn from his sin, instead he went to the witch of Endor, a forbidden act. We know that God will forgive every repentant person, always, and never turns anyone away. But Saul still stubbornly refused to repent.

God had forbidden consulting mediums and seeing spiritists, calling these things an abomination.

"Regard not them that have familiar spirits, neither seek after wizards, to be defiled by them: I am the Lord your God," Leviticus 19:31.

He ended up dying in battle by suicide, still not repenting or turning from his murderous jealousy and now adding self-murder to his evil choices.

Saul’s story shows us how to lose the spirit of God. Being filled with his spirit involves doing the opposite – repent of your sin and believe in Christ, surrender your wrong heart attitudes, turn from your sins, do what you know to be right in Christ’s strength.

Judas' Story Reveals the Same Progression
The story of Judas is similar. Like Saul he was once a follower of Jesus. Like Saul he had sins to overcome. And like Saul he gave in to those sins and let them overcome him. In the scriptures it says that Satan possessed Judas. How did it happen?

And supper being ended, the devil having now put into the heart of Judas Iscariot, Simon’s son, to betray him; John 13:2.

He allowed Satan to put it into his heart to betray Jesus.

"Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded."

James 4:7-8 .

Judas was not submitting to God and resisting the devil, he was cherishing the thoughts Satan gave him and making plans to betray his Lord. Jesus answered, he it is, to whom I shall give a sop, when I have dipped it. And when he had dipped the sop, he gave it to Judas Iscariot, the son of Simon.

And after the sop Satan entered into him. Then said Jesus unto him, That thou doest, do quickly, John 13:26-27.

Jesus' Explanation of How Demon-Possession Occurs
Jesus explained the process of how demon possession happens in Matthew 12:43-45. Let's read it together:

43 “When an impure spirit comes out of a person, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. 44 Then it says, ‘I will return to the house I left.’ When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order. 45 Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that person is worse than the first. That is how it will be with this wicked generation.”

He starts the story in an interesting place, with a person who has just had a demon cast out of them. He probably started the story here because He was going from town to town and casting demons out of many people (Matthew 8:16). However, many of these same people would later reject Him as the Messiah, in fact the Jewish people as a whole would reject Him, and in doing so would open themselves up to demons all over again. He wanted to give them a strong warning, that just because they were today freed of demons by His power, didn't guarantee that they would remain free. If they rejected Him and embraced a lifestyle of unrepentant sin, those He cast demons out of would become possessed again, and this time it would be worse than it was when they were first possessed.

Yes, as alarming as it sounds, many people in Jesus' day were possessed! In this story Jesus says the spirit goes through arid places seeking rest and doesn't find it, then so it says "I will return to the house I left." When it arrives it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean, and put in order. Then it goes and finds seven more spirits more wicked than itself, and they enter the person and live there. The final condition of the person is worse than when they were first possessed.

Then notice Jesus' chilling words: "Even so shall it be unto this wicked generation." Wow. That whole generation of Jews rejected Him, and the result was Satan gained control over them and they became possessed.

We see this at the time of Noah too, a whole generation given over to continual evil, to the point where even their thoughts were never benevolent and good. A holy or kind desire never crossed their minds. There was only evil continually. (Genesis 6:5) If anyone has ever been possessed, it would have been these people, who were as evil in character as demons were, and had to be destroyed by a flood because there was no more chance of redemption for them.

We see it with the Amorites too. They sinned so decidedly that they grieved away all mercy, and once someone rejects Jesus that completely, there is no more sacrifice for sins left, no Mediator to plead for mercy if they reject the only One who can plead on their behalf. (Hebrews 10:26) Having rejected mercy, judgment is all that was left.

When will this state of things happen again that the whole world will commit the unpardonable sin and be demon-possessed? At the end of time. Everyone except God's people will be fully evil like the people of Noah's time, and fully controlled by demons too (Revelation 22:11). So this message Jesus gives in Matthew 12:42-45 is a cautionary tale that is very applicable to us today.

Notice in Jesus' story how the house was swept clean and put in order? This is a reference to a person repenting of their sins and gaining forgiveness from Christ, and of living a "life of repentance" as Martin Luther called it, where they part with sin and walk in holiness by the Holy Spirit living in their hearts and giving them a new nature. This is a reference to a converted person.

It shows that a converted person walking in holiness cannot be possessed by demons.

2 Peter 2:20 sheds light into how the person who was clean and free of demons became possessed again and this time by 7 demons...how the person's latter end become worse than their beginning.

"...if they have escaped the corruption of the world by knowing our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and are again entangled in it and are overcome, they are worse off at the end than they were at the beginning."

If they become entangled in the corruption of the world. Corruption equals immorality. It's telling us that if they are living a lifestyle of unrepentant sin, influenced by the world and not by Christ, living in disobedience to God, then even though they were converted prior to this...the demons can come back and possess them again.

You can't catch demons like one catches a cold. They are not a natural condition or problem. Demon-possession is a moral and a spiritual problem. It happened to Judas when he betrayed Jesus into the hands of the Pharisees (Luke 22, John 13). His choice to give into this temptation and do this evil act caused him to become possessed.

Faith and Obedience the Answer, Not Ritualistic Behavior
Notice also the absence of what Jesus doesn't mention in this cautionary parable. He doesn't say rebuke the demons in my Name every day to get them to stay away. He doesn't present the answer to demon-possession as ritualistic behavior. Instead, He gives us the principle behind how demon-possession occurs, and calls on us to follow this principle in our daily lives in order to keep our house "swept clean."

There is only one cause of demon-possession, and only one solution to demon-possession presented by the Bible, and it's not ritualistic in nature. In fact, rituals will do nothing for you. An entire change of one's life is needed to get free of demons. You must surrender your life fully to Christ, become fully His own, and walk with Him in obedience. Lighting candles and doing daily rebukes will accomplish nothing...they are powerless to help you. Christ wants your whole heart. Put yourself squarely on His side and He will cast the demon out of you and it will never return as long as you walk with Him.

Only in Christ’s strength can we part with sin. It’s a work he has to do in us. “For it is God who works in you to will and to do of his good pleasure,” Philippians 2:13 .

Jesus is the Great Physician and our Savior from sin. He’s the healer, not us. We depend on him for every healing and every victory. He is “among us as a God who serves,” Luke 22:27 . Like a doctor or a paramedic, he ministers to us and we are the patient. What a wonderful thought! It may take some time to get the victory over sin, but he will never abandon us to Satan or fail to give us the victory.

The Verdict: Demon-Possession is a Moral Condition, It Happens Due to Sin
Demon-possession is a spiritual illness, a moral illness. You can’t catch it like a cold. It’s not random. A person becomes demon-possessed by resisting the Holy Spirit and living a life of sin. The more you yield to Satan the more control he gets over you. The world will tell you that the choices you make in life are all equal and that there is no distinction. It’s common these days to live with your boyfriend or girlfriend before marriage for instance, and the world will tell you this is no different than marrying them and then living together. But it’s very different because one choice is a moral choice, and the other choice is an immoral one. One obeys God and the other grieves his Spirit. It’s our choices that can cause us to be filled with God’s Spirit or to become a habitation of demons.

To Determine if The Person Could be Demon-Possessed, Ask Them About Their History
So when determining if a person is demon-possessed or if it’s mental illness, ask them (with permission) about their history. Were they living in unrepentant sin in the year before the "symptoms" started? If the person was a devoted Christian and living a godly life and then bam, the symptoms emerged, it cannot be demon-possession, no matter what it looks like on the outside, and even if they are hearing voices. We want to make sure we’re trusting God’s Word above our experience, and that we use God’s Word as the authority that interprets our experience, rather than trying to decipher what we’re seeing based on our very limited and fallible human analysis. It’s very common in our day and age to live a life of willful sin, so there could be a lot of people who are demon-possessed. And it’s possible for someone to be both demon-possessed and have mental illness! Jesus healed a man who was both blind and mute and demon-possessed. So multiple conditions occurring at the same time and in the same person, is something that can happen.

Then was brought unto him one possessed with a devil, blind, and dumb: and he healed him, insomuch that the blind and dumb both spake and saw, Matthew 12:22 .

We see Jesus healing people in the scriptures who had both physical ailments and demon-possession. The brain is a physical organ as we talked about in a prior article, and when it malfunctions physically this is when we see the symptoms of mental illness emerge. It’s also possible for illness to start with a psychological cause – with sadness or severe psychological trauma (things outside of our control), or bad thought habits and worshipping self rather than trusting in God (things within out control), which causes the thoughts to react upon the body and bring about physical malfunction this way. (I’ve written another article that deals specifically with this subject and I won’t go into it in detail here).

In Jesus’ day many people were demon possessed.

I don’t believe it’s any less common today. Our world is even more wicked today than it was in Jesus’ day, and if demon-possession was not uncommon back then, it’s probably even more common now. But whatever the person’s illness was – physical, mental, or spiritual – Jesus healed them. And Jesus is still the Great Physician today. He has commissioned His church today with authority to “Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.” Matthew 10:8. Demons will flee when God’s people meet and pray. And, unlike physical healing, which God may say no to, or may sometimes give only a partial healing, God will always cast out a demon, since as mentioned earlier being filled with God's Holy Spirit and free of demons is linked with salvation, and God always says yes to salvation as it is His will for all men to be saved and for no one to be lost (1 Timothy 2:3-4, 2 Peter 3:9). The answer is never no if you pray over someone who is demon-possessed. This subject is like salvation; God’s will is always say yes, and only the person themselves can stop the blessing from happening.

Why Getting This Wrong is Dangerous
We talked about how at the time of Christ He adjured them to keep their "houses" which represented their bodies in the parable, "swept clean" and free of demons. Jesus was in earnest about this because He knew that whole generation would reject Him and become demon-possessed in so doing, and lose out on heaven. You cannot reject the Messiah and not open wide the heart to demons; the two go hand-in-hand. In warning them, He brought some of them to repentance and kept them vigilant against the devil.

In the last days it will happen again where the whole world except a remnant who are the people of God, will become demon-possessed, and fully evil like in the days of Noah. God will finally say of them "Let he who is filthy remain filthy still" (Revelation 22:11), showing their case is finalized and solidified in rebellion. How will this occur? A religio-political power called Babylon is going to rise up that will perform signs and wonders to deceive people and cause them to be lost. The Bible says of Babylon that "by thy sorceries were all nations deceived." All nations will be deceived by her. In another place the Bible says “Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird.” Revelation 18:2

Though this power will claim to be Christian and follow God, it will actually be the very habitation of devils, and harbor false doctrines which are damning (2 Peter 2:1) and result in the loss of souls, and all who follow Babylon into apostasy will become demon-possessed and will themselves be a habitation of devils.

This topic of demon-possession is something Satan wants to mystify and lead us off track with, because he wants to lead us down that road in these last days to be filled with demons. He loves false doctrines that take us away from the central issue: repentance and obedience in order to be right with God...and its opposite rebellion and disobedience as the way of being lost and demon-possessed. He wants to confuse people on the dividing line between what makes someone a Christian and what makes someone a lost unbeliever. In this way he can deceive people and take their souls.

Christianized New Age
Alarmingly for many Christians they've adopted the new system Satan devised where Christianity is turned into basically a Christianized type of New Age practice that operates via fallen principles, which are false ones, rather than the true principles found in God's Word. The Holy Spirit is received by singing and emotional exercises, not by surrendering sins and wrong lifestyle practices to God, and elated or holy feelings indicate our hearts are right with God, rather than our actions and our attitudes. Demons are seen to be a natural evil that we must rebuke and pray away using faith and authority, and sins are cherished and held onto as they aren't seen as being relevant. All this paves the way for the end-time deception of Babylon that will be very spiritual and feel and look very real, but it will be demons performing the signs and wonders, not the Holy Spirit. (Revelation 13::13-14) The people following the false system will deny the power of the Holy Spirit even while performing many miracles and signs. The true power of the Holy Spirit is the power to change the heart, and they will have no change in character, in fact they will be hardening their hearts against God.

But, If My Loved One is Hearing Demon Voices, Doesn’t That Mean Demons are Involved?

It’s common when a loved one is found to be hearing voices, especially if the loved one reports hearing demon voices, and is diagnosed with a psychotic disorder such as schizophrenia, that family members will ask the question: “How can this not be demons when my loved one is hearing demonic voices and the nature of the things they are commanding him to do are immoral things like suicide?”

But does hearing voices that sound like demons mean they are demons?

People often tend to see the voices as having evil intent, however, they aren’t taking into account a couple of very important things.

Voices from Psychosis are Nonsensical

A crucial point many don’t realize is that psychotic voices are nonsensical. This is something the psychiatrist understands however, but unfortunately doctors don’t usually teach and inform the family, even if their loved one signed for them to have access to their records and to speak with doctors. There’s a huge lack of education.

The voices that communicate with them aren’t logical voices, directly going against Bible truth, and trying to get the person to disobey God. They don't fit the Bible "profile" of demons or behave as the Bible says demons behave. For instance, the demon voices that screamed at me for 3 weeks in 2005, and sounded just as audible as if there were people in the room with me screaming at me, screamed “We’re going to kill you before your prayers break the celebrity you've been praying for out of the secret society he’s in! Before this wonderful thing comes to pass we’re going to kill you and give you a tragedy instead of the ending the Lord wants!” But the thing is I hadn’t really been communicating with a celebrity through the Holy Spirit for the past couple years like I thought I’d been, and I wasn’t really praying him out of a secret society of demon worshippers in the music industry that he was trapped in. In real life, he wasn’t trapped, and was choosing of his own volition to be a musician who made music about immoral themes. He could leave the music business at any time and stop releasing new records.

I was having nonsensical ideas about how the world worked and what was happening in my life. This happens due to brain inflammation hijacking the neural wiring of the brain and causing wrong connections between concepts and their inter-related relationships. The brain becomes "wired" wrong, rendering sane thought impossible, and making your thoughts insane ones instead. It's a symptom known as delusions, when you believe nonsensical things and have no awareness that they are nonsense.

These demon voices I was hearing believed the same things I did, and had the same fault in adding up logic that I had. They weren’t demons; it was my own brain generating these voices.

The auditory centers of the brain can be over-activated due to inflammation, when a person is psychotic, causing them to "hear" their own internal monologue and thoughts like you'd hear a voice outside of you. During this break I had nerve zaps and very painful inflammation through my whole nervous system, including my brain.

Voices From Psychosis Do Not Have an Immoral Motive

The “temptations” the demonic voices give aren’t things like “Tell a lie that paints you in a good light so you can get hired for this job.” Or, “Life is hard, you should kill yourself to escape all this crippling responsibility.” These are real temptations, and we can plainly see they are real temptations because there is a clear selfish motive there.

But with nonsensical voices when a person is in full psychosis and can’t understand morality, their brain doesn’t generate clear, selfish motives. Instead the voices sound like disjointed, broken ideas with no clear motive. For instance, the voices can say things like "Your true form is a square, and God wants you to become a square today, so go in your room and pray all day with faith to become a square so you can return to your true form." There's no motive there. There's no clear psychology there either as even the psychology as to why a person would want to do this or what could motivate them to desire this is disjointed and doesn't make sense.

The Definition of Temptation According to the Bible
For someone to be said to be tempted by Satan, according to the Bible, there must be an underlying motive of selfishness present. Satan always appeals to what the Bible calls the “flesh” – the selfish part of our character. Satan encourages that selfish part of us, and gives justifications for why we should indulge it.

But the voices generated by an inflamed brain in psychosis do not have a clear selfish motive. They are about nonsensical things, with no real motive present.

No, what they are experiencing are things like “You are the chosen one who must save the world, and the only way to save the world is to jump off the roof; everyone’s life depends on you”, something no one in their right mind could be tempted by because there’s no one who would actually believe that. Or things like “You are a metaphor, and God is calling you to become a physical human being and the process of transformation is done by dying.”

The voices are usually about saving people from destruction, saving yourself, but knowledge of God’s law of right and wrong aren’t present in the person's understanding when in full psychosis. For instance, I remember feeling strong emotions to save other people when in psychosis, but I couldn’t tell that lying and stealing wronged people. I lost that knowledge about principles. So if I needed to lie to someone to save them, I saw no problem with that. I didn’t really even understand what lying was and couldn’t see it denied someone their basic human right to factual information in which to base their choices, and violated the trust between us, and morally corrupted myself before God. I thought lying and telling the truth were both equal, and just different ways of going about things. Like the preference of liking the color blue better than red.

There's Nonsense "Chatter"

A common situation occurs in families with a person experiencing psychosis, where the psychotic person will say something along the lines of "I'm hearing angry demon voices that are telling me to kill myself", and the family then believes real demons are talking to their child. But what the psychotic person leaves out is that the voices are about nonsense. The psychotic person leaves this out because due to their psychosis they can't differentiate between nonsense and sense, so it doesn't even occur to them that the voices are nonsensical.

There is a whole lot of other nonsensical “chatter” from the voices that don’t involve death or dying or violence. Sentence fragments. Signs they believe they are getting from God or Satan such as a tree moving a certain way means their grandmother is going to recover from her illness, or that they should read the book they were thinking about reading and praying for clarity on. Many, many signs which do not come to pass. But if one does seem to come to pass that is the one they will focus on and tell you all about.

These are nonsensical things that break the laws of logic. The person may honestly believe it’s a good thing to take their own life, and may think they are doing the right thing by taking their life. They may even experience overwhelming feelings of false guilt if they don’t do it, because the emotional centers of the brain get re-wired and dysregulated when a person is in psychosis, creating emotions that are not based in reality or logic, and mood swings and intense emotions sweeping over a person are not uncommon. “Moral emotions” like guilt can be spontaneously generated, and these powerful emotions together with flawed logic can be a very dangerous combination. The person can’t be convicted by God’s Holy Spirit about right and wrong if they lose their moral judgment, and so they can’t respond to conviction.

This is why psychosis is such a dangerous state for a person to be in.

A Mental State of Being "Without Law"

They enter into a state that is “without law”.

The Bible tells us that “by the law is the knowledge of sin” (Romans 3:20), and that even people without access to the Bible have a basic understanding of right and wrong, because their brain is created to understand morality, and the Holy Spirit convicts their conscience (Romans 2:14-15).

But in someone who is fully psychotic, their brain cannot understand morality, and thus cannot be convicted by God’s Holy Spirit, as it’s our brain that God communes with when He convicts us.

Thus the fully psychotic person enters into a state where it could be said that they are “without law”, and thus without a knowledge of sin.

They enter a neutral, innocent state where they are no longer a moral agent. This can sometimes be a very dangerous state to be in for the individual and for society.

For something to be a temptation, and for one to be said to be tempted, according to how the process of temptation works in the Bible, the person must be able to understand the temptation is a sin. If a person understands the difference between right and wrong, between God’s will and Word and things that go against His will and His Word, it’s only then that a person can be said to be sinning if they go against what they know to be right. They must be able to be convicted by God’s Holy Spirit not to sin, and be tempted by the devil at the same time, and use their will to make their choice. They can either call on God for help to resist the temptation, or they can give in to the temptation and grieve the Holy Spirit by doing the sin. If they give in, it’s then the Bible defines their action as sin.

"If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them."
James 4:17

This Bible principle is why animals are not said to have given in to temptation when they harm one another. When a lion has a strong impulse to kill and eat a gazelle, and carries out that impulse and kills the gazelle, we don’t say the devil tempted the lion to do that and the lion gave into the devil’s temptations.

We don’t call the lion ‘guilty’ and sentence him to a court hearing.

This is because the principle of what makes something a temptation and a sin is that the tempted one must have the ability to understand right from wrong, in order to consent to sin, or to consent to take hold of God’s help to resist sin. Only someone made in the image of God has the ability to understand right and wrong, so only people can be sinners. But people can lose their ability to understand right and wrong if they are experiencing severe brain inflammation that confuses the brain.

But a person in full psychosis loses the ability to discern right from wrong. Moral perception is not always lost if psychosis is mild. And some people even with schizophrenia do retain some moral perception, though to get a diagnosis of schizophrenia it usually involves being severe enough that moral perception is lost or at least significantly impaired.

The Brain Can Generate Images and Audio All On Its Own, Without Demon Involvement
Our brain is responsible for all of our perceptions, including judgment and moral perception. Including our ability to understand the concept of sin, and differentiate sin from an obedient, holy action and choice.

While the eyes take in visuals, and the ears take in sound, these visuals and sound are interpreted and really “heard” and “seen” by the brain, not really the eyes and the ears. The eyes and ears are only transporters of the information, not processors or interpreters of the information, thus it’s our brain that gives us the experience of hearing and seeing, and what it feels like to exist in a certain environment and setting, and what it feels like to have a body in a physical world.

And then the memory auditory and visual files are stored in the brain. They can pop up if the brain is neuro-toxic, and a person can “hear” voices coming from their memory when no person is actually present, or “see” images of people, sometimes as realistic as if an actual person where standing in front of them, even when no other person is present.

These symptoms happen in cases of psychosis, when the auditory and visual centers of the brain are overstimulated due to inflammation.

So when family members think that because their loved one with psychosis is hearing voices, they must be real demons, they are not realizing the brain itself is capable of generating images and sounds all on its own.

The brain is a magnificent organ capable of great things. It is the handiwork of God. Our whole experience in this world is made possible by our brain, and subject to the errors and malfunctioning of our brain if our brain goes haywire. This is why people in psychosis cannot tell they are in psychosis; when our brain interprets and projects our reality a certain way, we’re limited by the interpretation. Being finite, we can’t see around our perception.

Psychosis Can Seem Like a Spiritual Awakening
Going into psychosis can feel like having a spiritual awakening. One of the big reasons for this, is that when you’re slipping into psychosis, the science of the world and its systems changes. You look at a table, and the way you understand matter and what matter is has changed. Many of the perceptions we use to understand the world around us we can’t put into words and we aren’t even aware of. When these perceptions start getting reconnected in a different way, we suddenly become very aware of all the different perceptions and the amazing capabilities of the brain as it interprets concepts in science, both seen and unseen things like radio waves, theological concepts like the nature of God.

We see from a first-hand perspective what perception entails, and become aware of parts of our perception that are often missed or taken for granted when we’re in our right mind and don’t study or think about perception at all.

Due to how intelligent the brain is, and seeing this first-hand, and also the increase in dopamine, adrenaline, and sometimes histamine that occurs during psychosis and causes the brain to work even faster than normal and be smarter in many ways, although psychotic at the same time, it’s common for the person in psychosis to conclude they are gaining supernatural abilities, or that God Himself is communicating with them, especially if they hear a voice that claims to be God or sounds like God.

Once again, the God-voice is as nonsensical as the demon voices that some people hear. I realized this immediately after coming out of psychosis with lithium in the hospital. The grand dreams and communications I had received, which had been very vivid and looked like blue-ray definition, could no longer fool me, because they were total and complete nonsense.

For instance, I had dreams and communications that I was the chosen one to use the gift of faith to open dimension portals and let angels into our world to fight off demons who were already here, and tip the war in God’s favor and bring about the Second Coming of Christ.

I could see clearly this isn’t the gift of faith as described by the Bible, nor how it works, that both angels and demons were already in our world in the same dimension according to the Bible, and that angels could protect us and God sent them for this purpose, they didn’t need to be let into our world.

I could tell both the science and the theology was off completely and that it was just complete nonsense.

But when in psychosis, the psychotic person can’t tell this, and with the brain inflammation accessing new parts of their brain and bringing up images and information that they didn’t have access to before, It’s a common conclusion people in psychosis make that “There’s no way I’m this smart; God must be communicating with me, or giving me a supernatural ability I didn’t have before”

They can’t tell their brain is making wrong connections though. Psychosis gives them a symptom of unawareness called anosognosia, so they can’t see that their thought patterns are nonsensical and they are believing delusions.

God created our human brain with the ability to understand every category of information and science in our world. Even immaterial things like radio waves, even deep scientific truths like matter and how it’s really energy, and how space is really another dimension connected in relationship with time.

We can also understand spiritual realities. We don’t of course, understand as much as God does, and we have finite understanding, but we were actually created to be in the very Presence of God, and to understand what it’s possible for a person to understand about God Himself, the angels He created, and the other worlds and the nature of life in those worlds and other creations. So even though we’ve never been to those other worlds and creations of God, our brain was created with the capacity to understand those beings and creations.

When a person goes into psychosis, the parts of the brain responsible for understanding all of these amazing things – both spiritual and scientific – get rewired, and the neural circuitry is changed, so they perceive things out of alignment with reality.

What can happen then, is a person can believe they are God, or that they are a prophet receiving prophecies from God, because their brain is contemplating spiritual themes, but doing so in an illogical way, and coming to an illogical conclusion. The person can feel like they are in another realm, because all the perceptions involved in helping them understand their experience in space and time have been disrupted and wrongly connected. You can have the wrong perception of what time is, and how time works. You can believe you are a metaphor, or that you’re a T Rex in the Triassic period and also yourself at the same time.

The psychotic person, not realizing their voices are nonsensical, will often simply communicate “Demons are screaming at me.” Or “God is talking to me.” The family may then believe their loved one is harassed by demons or possessed by them, without ever knowing the voices their loved one hears are nonsensical.

Everyone Is Tempted By Real Demons; It's a Part of Life in This World, and It Doesn't Mean You've Done Something Wrong or That You're Supposed to Get Them to the Place Where They Leave You Alone Permanently

Everyone hears demons in some way and is tempted by demon. Even Jesus was tempted by demons. So hearing demon voices in some capacity is a normal part of being a Christian in this life, and yet we aren’t all troubled over the voices to the extent that the loved one who has been hospitalized is troubled.

When people with psychosis hear demon voices, the voices are often loud, and sound like an audible voice. These voices are different from the normal demon voices we all hear when we are tempted, that usually sound more like suggestions and arguments and reasoning than an audible voice speaking to us.

The demon voices people with psychosis hear can make it hard or impossible to sleep, that’s how loud they can be. The demon voices we all hear, usually do not prevent sleep.

This isn’t to say Satan could never harass someone with demons to the point where they couldn’t sleep. We don’t want to make conclusions that aren’t in the Bible, or set criteria or adopt ideas that aren’t set by the Bible. And the Bible has never said that demons can’t harass people mentally with demon voices that are audible and loud, so we don’t want to say that would never happen if the Bible hasn’t said that.

The Bible says every Christian will be tempted by Satan. This is a normal part of life in this world. That’s not to say it isn’t difficult or awful to have Satan here in this world with us, but due to the fall and the situation we’re in now as a result of the fall, Christians are daily tempted by demons directly everyday. Even Jesus was tempted by Satan daily when He walked on earth as a man. The Bible doesn’t say that we’re supposed to consider temptation to mean there’s anything wrong with us or our relationship with God. We aren’t supposed to pray away the tempting voice of Satan; we are supposed to resist it, and we’re told that in resisting that voice it will flee from us. But then we’re told it will return again later to tempt us again. Nothing has gone wrong if we’re tempted and we aren’t supposed to try to pray away all temptation. Rather the answer given is to pray for strength to resist the temptations that Satan will send us throughout our lives.

Voices From Psychosis Don’t Flee When Resisted and Thus Don’t Fit the Pattern of How Real Demons Act According to the Bible, and Thus Can’t be Real Demons

However, with the person experiencing psychosis they will tell you the demon voices do not fit this pattern where if you resist the temptation they go away for a time. Real demons may tempt someone to commit suicide, for instance, but when you resist their temptations in God’s strength, they flee for a time before they come back and hit you again with more temptations.

Voices from schizophrenia do not flee when you resist them. People in psychosis often hear voices 24/7 all through the hours of the day and night for years telling them to commit suicide or that they are worthless, or other negative things.

Also, feelings of depression when one is chronically depressed, do not flee when you resist Satan’s temptations to commit suicide.

Satan and his demons flee when you resist his temptations to commit suicide, feelings of depression, and the feeling of living being very hard or feeling unbearable, and of wanting a way out of the pain – this doesn’t leave when someone resists Satan and may stay chronically, until the point where their stress reduces and these symptoms lift, or they get medical attention and nutrient protocols that can lift their depression and anxiety.

Demons will always behave in the way the Bible spells out. While Satan himself can lie to us, and he does lie, pretending to be ascended masters in Buddhism when people channel him, or pretending to be dead loved ones when mediums and spiritualists contact demon spirits, he can’t operate contrary to the rules of the Bible. The Bible tells us Satan can lie, and give visions and manifestations that make his lies appear to be true. But the Bible tells us Satan can’t do certain things. He can’t for instance, force someone to sin. He can only tempt. He can’t actually be god, and do the almighty things God alone can do such as omniscience (being all knowing), he can only desire to be god. Satan can’t read our thoughts. These are some of the things the Bible spells out plainly that Satan is incapable of doing.

And another one of those things Satan can’t do is he can’t not flee from you for a time if you resist him in the moral strength the Lord gives you. God banishes him for a time, and doesn’t permit him to constantly tempt us 24/7. As finite beings who tire and need time to re-charge, we need time to re-charge before it would be right to allow Satan to tempt us again.

So if you’re having voices that do not flee when you resist them, they can’t be real demons.

During a psychotic episode I had in 2005, I heard demonic voices screaming at me 24/7, all through the night and day. They told me they were going to kill me. I tried to pray them away, called up pastors and had them pray for me, resisted anything I thought was evil, and yet the voices kept coming. I could only sleep 3 hours per night the voices were so loud and I also had extreme anxiety that made it almost impossible to sleep.

If these had been real demons, they would have fled when I resisted their temptations and prayed to God and had others pray for me. Real demons always flee when a person resists them in Christ’s strength.

If Your Symptoms Respond to Medication
If what feels like demon-possession doesn't respond to prayer and leaving sin behind, and it does respond favorably to medication or supplement treatments, and alleviates when you take these, this is a huge indicator it's probably a health issue, and not a possession issue.

Satan Doesn't Usually Let People Know It's Him
Another important thing to keep in mind is that usually when Satan tempts someone, he doesn’t let them know it’s him. He tries to come to people in the most deceptive way possible, introducing temptations in a way where you think it was your idea to engage in the immoral action you’re being tempted with.

In false religions, demons may appear to people in visions or communications, but they rarely claim to be demons. They usually claim to be ascended masters, or holy angels, or deceased loved ones, or gods and deities.

Satan rarely comes to people and says “Hey it’s me; I want you to kill yourself and here are my arguments as to why you should do it.”

However, this isn’t to say that demons will never disclose themselves for who they are. We know from the scriptures that demons at the time of Christ revealed themselves to be demons on more than one occasion.

“When he arrived at the other side in the region of the Gadarenes, two demon-possessed men coming from the tombs met him. They were so violent that no one could pass that way.

“What do you want with us, Son of God?” they shouted. “Have you come here to torture us before the appointed time?”

The demons begged Jesus, “If you drive us out, send us into the herd of pigs.”

He said to them, “Go!” So they came out and went into the pigs, and the whole herd rushed down the steep bank into the lake and died in the water.”

Matthew 8:28-32

“Moreover, demons came out of many people, shouting, “You are the Son of God!” But he rebuked them and would not allow them to speak, because they knew he was the Messiah.”

Luke 4:41

The demons in these accounts let everyone know they were demons. Satan will do what he perceives to be advantageous to himself. He can take on the form of a snake or he can reveal himself to be who he really is, whichever he thinks will be most advantageous.

So if a loved one is hearing voices that claim to be demons or sound obviously demonic, it’s worth asking the question why would demons be so avert? And consider the possibility that maybe it’s not demons.

How Psychosis Causes a Sensual Amped-Up State
Psychosis involves a loss of reason. It’s similar to being fully drunk on alcohol and then there is usually anxiety and irritability from adrenaline levels spiking (and sometimes dopamine also). So the person is like a drunk on caffeine. The higher functions of the brain where we reason like the prefrontal cortex not only give a person the ability to discern between right and wrong, but also when in working order balance the emotional regions of the brain so they do not take over. So when someone in psychosis experiences a dialing down of the prefrontal cortex the whole brain becomes imbalanced, and the emotions and sensual passions run the show. The person is in a heightened and amped up sensual state. In such a state. Hypersexuality where your sex drive is like five times higher than normal is common, along with strong desires to do sorcery and get into the occult. These are all the common temptations of human beings (Galatians 5:19-21), but in a psychotic state they are amped up 5 times higher than they are normally experienced. It’s common for the person to run around and do many immoral things during psychosis. With such chaotic behavior going on you can be very confused as to whether the person has demon possession from getting into the occult, or sleeping around, or whether they became psychotic and got into the occult because of a lapse in judgment.

Flesh Out Their Timeline: Was Moral Perception Lost Before or After Immoral Acts Were Engaged In
It's important to flesh out their timeline to decipher this. You need to find out whether they adopted delusional ideas about morality before or after they started engaging in the immoral behavior. If morality was lost before the behaviors, then they engaged in them innocently. If morality was in tact while engaging in the immorality then they did so with knowledge of what they were doing, and they could be demon-possessed from it.

This is something I had to sift through in my own life. During bipolar psychosis I had consulted mediums thinking that Jesus could speak to me through them. I lost my ability to understand the Bible so the passages where God forbids seeking mediums I could not understand. I thought the Bible was a coded book and wasn’t speaking outright about these things. I thought I had special ability to understand deep things in the Bible that others didn’t have; that I could interpret more of the code than other people could. ‘Grandiose’ delusions like this are common with bipolar disorder.

This created confusion later when I thought I might be demon-possessed. Was I demon-possessed from going into the occult? A person can certainly become demon-possessed by getting into the occult.

"And it came to pass, as we went to prayer, a certain damsel possessed with a spirit of divination met us, which brought her masters much gain by soothsaying": Acts 16:16 .

Consulting mediums and engaging in occult rituals of any kind breaks the first commandment. Thou shalt have no other gods before me, Exodus 20:3 It is idolatry and it is worship of demon spirits. Any false worship practices are done to demons, as Satan is the author and the subject of all false worship.

"No, but the sacrifices of pagans are offered to demons, not to God. And I do not want you to be participants with demons." 1 Corinthians 10:20

In the end it comes down to whether they did the immortality without knowledge of the moral law or with knowledge.

Making a Choice for Salvation Involves Reasoning Powers Too
To be saved and forgiven of our sins, a person must also be rational. God appeals to our reasoning powers to make a decision for Christ. If we can’t reason we can’t choose Christ.

"Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool" Isaiah 1:18 .

Even our earthly courts have something called innocent by reason of insanity.

Taking these things into account, and knowing that “true and just are God’s judgments” ( Rev. 16:7 ). We can conclude that God will not allow a person to become demon-possessed who does immoral things during complete psychosis; neither will he allow that person to be lost if they were saved prior to falling into psychosis. You don’t have to worry that the things you did while insane will lead to Satan gaining control over you. Satan can only gain control if you know to do right and choose to do wrong instead and thereby grieve God’s spirit.

For Those Not In Complete Psychosis
While those diagnosed with schizophrenia usually are in complete psychosis by the time they are ill enough to get the diagnosis,2/3rds of them regain sanity on anti-psychotic medication enough to know basis right and wrong. And many people with other mental illness are often not in complete psychosis. Many have some symptoms of psychosis, but not enough to have lost their reasoning powers completely. It’s here that I believe constitutes the most dangerous situation for a mentally ill Christian. If you still have enough sanity to know right from wrong, but your brain is compromised, then Satan will try to tempt you to do wrong, and you have an increased desire for lusts of the flesh due to the inflamed state your body and physical brain is in, and blunted perception of right and wrong and it takes extra effort to control your impulses due to your brain being compromised. You’re in a vulnerable position and he will try to take advantage of it. This is the state many find themselves in, and if you are in that state, I recommend praying daily and hourly and relying on God for strength, and pay special attention to your health. Do anything that you can do to build your physical brain up will help you in this conflict. (consider diet, exercise, and something called the Walsh protocol for mental illness that really helped me, etc.) If you haven’t learned to pray I recommend a book called ‘With Christ in the School of Prayer ‘ by Andrew Murray.

What Does Demon Possession Actually Look Like?
What does demon-possession look like anyway? We know from the scriptures, as stated earlier, that Judas when he betrayed Christ was demon-possessed. Here we see a man appearing logical, composed, and in his right mind making a profoundly immoral business deal with the Pharisees. This tells us that demon-possession doesn’t always involve foaming at the mouth, and that people can be demon-possessed and not appear to be. The only trust-worthy sign of demon possession is in the degree of evil. Judas was a sinner and he had done evil things before this, but the Bible doesn’t tell us he was possessed by Satan until he made the decision to betray his Lord. It seems much more likely then, that abusers, prostitutes, people engaged in same sex romantic relations, etc. are possessed, rather than someone who looks to be out of their mind and is out-of-control. Immorality and evil is how someone becomes possessed. A child with full psychosis who flings themselves around the house and can’t understand right from wrong can’t do evil and can’t become demon-possessed.

If you know two people – one who looks demon-possessed but was living a godly life in alignment with God’s Word before they slipped into the symptoms, and another who looks perfectly fine, but is living a life of sin, it’s much more likely that the person living in sin is demon-possessed than it is that the person who simply acts bizarre and has personality changes is demon-possessed.

Satan Can Make Demon-Possession Look However He Wants it to Look
Demons are intelligent fallen angels, and if they are possessing someone, they can make it look like whatever they desire it to look like; whatever will suit their deceptive purposes. They’ve made it appear to be epilepsy, muteness, and many other manifestations. So demon-possession can mimic actual physical illness, or it can not even be visible as was the case with Judas.

“And one of the multitude answered and said, Master, I have brought unto thee my son, which hath a dumb spirit; And wheresoever he taketh him, he teareth him: and he foameth, and gnasheth with his teeth, and pineth away: and I spake to thy disciples that they should cast him out; and they could not,” Mark 9:17 , 18.

One Common Denominator Possession Will Always Have
A possessed person will always have a selfish character and be living an immoral lifestyle. They won't love other people as God loves them. The Bible says only someone connected with God can love. This is the common denominator.

"love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God."
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
1 John 4:7-8

How I Finally Realized I Wasn't Demon-Possessed

A light bulb finally went off in my mind after I saw a natural doctor and was given high dose vitamins for a physical illness, that what I had wasn’t demon-possession. I think the vitamins I was taking caused my brain to think more logically and I was able to decipher better what was going on. I had been having bad brain fog, delusions, and other mental symptoms. And it just hit me that I had had pastors pray over me and recently had had a prayer warrior who was studying at the seminary fast and pray for me and I had prayed too – and I was still having symptoms. I just knew it wasn’t demon-possession at that point. If it were the demons would be acting how the Bible says they act, and they would have left me when I did the things the Bible said to do to be rid of them, but I still perceived them to be there.

And later as I further pursued mental health treatments and started to improve, this was only confirmed more and more.

Very recently I’ve been studying more into the biochemistry and neurology of psychosis and altered perception and I’ve learned some important things. As we all know, our brain is responsible for all our perceptions, even the very basic ones that we don’t consciously think about, like our ability to gauge when we are in an upright position and when we are tilted to the right or left or turned upside down. Our brain is also responsible for perceptions of the self such as when we look at our arm we know it’s ours and not someone else’s. It turns out that with dissociative symptoms (which I had along with my bipolar disorder and which often co-occur with psychotic disorders), a person can lose their sense that their body is theirs and is being controlled by their own brain, and that their thoughts are their own. This can cause a person to feel like another entity is controlling their thoughts or their body movements.

This symptom is called a self-referential processing error.

Below, at the end of this article is a link to a scientific study that talks about this symptom.

The Importance of Interpreting Our Experience Through The Word of God and No Other Lens
Once again, this just shows how important it is that we filter all our experiences through the Word of God and that we use the Word of God as our authority and not our experience! There are conditions out there that are beyond the current knowledge of modern medicine and neuroscience. Not only this but the full knowledge of how demons and the supernatural world works is beyond our current understanding also. There’s much we don’t know. God tells us what we need to know in the scriptures, and we don’t need speculation or human opinion, or to desire knowledge hidden from us for our own good, but to obey and believe these scriptures. We will be safe and right with God if we do this. The nervous system and the brain are very complex. Our brain gives us our perception of the world around us. At the time I came down with what I thought was demon-possession dissociation and its symptoms were outside of my knowledge and understanding. But what I needed to do was trust God’s Word that Jesus was stronger than Satan and that if I was seeking Him with all my heart, and turning from sin that He would receive me and I could not be demon-possessed. No matter what it felt like or seemed like was happening. God’s Word is truth, always.

God is always just and always good and even when we don’t understand what is going on and even though we may lack the ability to be logical due to a mental illness, He is always infinite and omniscient and almighty, able to help us, and the answer to all problems, even though we are completely finite and limited by our illness. He knew I needed vitamin therapy and He made sure I got it at the right time and in the right way, according to His plan. I was willing to pursue vitamin therapy because I could decipher I had physical symptoms even though I had the symptom of anosognosia which is a cognitive symptom that prevents a person from being able to tell they are psychotic. I had chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia and I could tell I had these problems, and so I was willing to seek the help of natural doctors for these symptoms, and as I did so the vitamins also helped my brain and my thinking become more logical.

It was in 2009 that I came out of the delusion that I was demon-possessed. I had this delusion from about 2005-2009.

I actually ended up going off the vitamins. My health tanked due to that and due to mold exposure.

In 2016 I was put on lithium for the worst psychotic break I’ve ever had in 2016 (this time I believed I had the ability to open dimension portals and was chosen to open them to let angels into our world to fight off demons and bring about the second coming – a very grandiose, and very illogical delusion), and it was then that I came out of the symptom of anosognosia. I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 at this time. I then knew I had a psychotic disorder and had been experiencing psychosis in varying degrees for all those years, and I was able to connect the dots in my mind. After coming out of psychosis, I saw Functional Medicine doctors again, this time for the purpose of improving the symptoms of logic and perception specifically, as I now knew I had a psychotic disorder.

I went on something called the Walsh protocol for mental illness, which you can find information about online (Dr. William Walsh’s book is called Nutrient Power and it’s available on Amazon), and the zinc in it particularly helped me in the area of logic and further brought me out of some of the milder delusional thinking I was still experiencing even after being put on antipsychotics. The rest of the nutrients in the Walsh protocol calmed and balanced my mood. I also went on supplements to treat mold illness because I’d been exposed to toxic black mold which raised my histamine and caused my immune system to be dysregulated, bringing on a condition called CIRS (Chronic Inflammatory Response Syndrome). I took herbs to restore blood flow to the deep regions of the brain and to boost something called BDNF (Brain Derived Neurotropic Factor) that repairs and regrows neurons. Ginkgo biloba, an herb that gets blood flow to the deep regions of the brain, really reduced my derealization symptoms, and calcium really helped too with that in a big way. I was low in Vitamin D and boosting immunity with vitamin D helped in a big way to get blood flow going too, and vitamin D brought me out of more of the mild delusions and made me think in an even more logical way. When vitamin D is too low, immunity is not robust and it weakens. When immunity weakens blood flow becomes sluggish. And when blood flow becomes sluggish nerve tone is affected, and nerve signaling is impeded, including the nerve signals in the brain. You then get connectivity issues in your brain, where parts of the brain that should be connected and signaling one another are disconnected, and wrong connections are made instead, and when wrong signaling occurs the brain experiences illogical, delusional thinking. Because the frontal lobe where logic occurs becomes disconnected from the other parts of the brain. MRI scans show connectivity issues in the brains of people with psychotic disorders, and also OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder).

Altered Sense of Body Ownership and Agency in Posttraumatic Stress Disorder and Its Dissociative Subtype: A Rubber Hand Illusion Study - PubMed